Allow yourself to heal, you are safe and always will be.

When I started healing sexual abuse, it was never only about healing the abuse.

Healing sexual abuse is so much more than processing the abuse. If something like this happens to you—as a child—they took a lot from you.

They took your energy, your voice, your authenticity, your power.

They took you, all of you.

To survive this, you could only dissociate. When I started healing, I had to make choices to stop every form of abuse in all areas of my life—to come out of the dissociation. This hurts like hell. Never underestimate what it takes to handle this.

But in the depth of that pain, you find your own voice again—your power. You can feel that you are stronger than what happened to you and the power perpetrators or entities want to hold over you.

To them, it's a game of power—to control you. People who have been abused can feel it; their fear of them. It's one of the biggest fears you have to heal, so it no longer controls you or has power over you.

It's a fear that was real when you were a child. The fear is still real, but you can heal that fear.

This fear prevents you from standing in your power. It doesn't matter if perpetrators are alive or not. You feel the energy of them—even if they are entities who still want power over you.

Taking your POWER back is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself: to stand up for yourself, your voice, your gifts, and use your power for you—to create the life you want and that is also meant for you!

I believe that feeling this fear—that someone still wants to control you or has power over you—keeps you from healing, even if you don't know it yourself. To me, this feels like part of the deeper reason why many people avoid healing or feel stuck in their healing.

If you feel like I'm speaking to you, please feel free to reach out. You can send me an email at info@kellyvandeelen.com anytime, and I’ll get back to you personally.

Lots of Love,

Kelly