Sometimes letting go, is the only way to heal.

Letting go is hard.

It can be really hard to let go of everything you once knew, the things you loved, the life you built. In the process of letting go, you can literally feel like you’re dying—old versions of yourself dying, versions that kept you small or thought that was the only way to stay safe. But you don’t need this false safety anymore.

It’s safe to open up your body, to listen to the story your body wants to tell and release. So you can step into your real power, your own truth, your own energy, and live the life meant for you.

I love celebrating carnival, but this year I chose not to. I felt I needed to give myself time to heal on a deeper level and to choose for myself. It’s not a popular choice, nor one many would make. Instead of filling myself with the pleasure of others, I focused on finding pleasure within myself—on a deeper layer, and on those layers that longed to be felt.

The body opens up when it feels safe. But if you do things you don’t truly feel, the body doesn’t feel safe and instead falls back into old patterns or survival mechanisms.

In my case, one of these is unconsciously carrying others, letting them lean on me, and the dissociation that comes with it—instead of using my own energy and medicine for myself. The body sends a clear signal: no more of this. It no longer wants to dissociate for yourself or others. These survival mechanisms and patterns arose in childhood, often linked to heavy trauma, and now the body wants to release them.

If you’re in the process of letting go—or if you feel deep down that you need to—let this be your reminder: You’re not feeling this for nothing.

It’s your soul calling you home.

Lots of love,

Kelly